Ever try and please your parents for years? well that's what I'm trying to do because we keep fighting and arguing and I'm seriously sick and tired of fighting and arguing. I want a life but I want them to back off two conflicting interests at the moment. I tried for so long to make them understand and they refuse to I decided for a bit that I could just go on without them understanding unfortunately, this weekend has proved otherwise.
Its everything I am that my parents don't like apparently not me they don't like, but my lifestyle, my friends I talk to. The two exceptions to that rule well, couple exceptions to that rule would be my friends from school and my friends from camp. I keep trying to get through to their thick skulls that what I'm doing online on youtube is called Role-Playing and it's how I relieve my stress but unfortunately they make a whole big issue out of nothing. I'm about to make the most important decisions of my life and it may cost me, a lot. I feel drained and I have a headache and I just wish I can make all this go away but I can't. There's so many things I want, and so many things I don't want. I just wish I can survive college before I go crazy because this is ridiculous. There's two of my parents and one of me, I so wish to God I had siblings but I now can't really say anything about God since my religion's changed as well but oh well, I'm going to stop ranting now. Hopefully today will go better but it don't seem like it, another boring day of classes lets hope I can focus for my sake. I will have to because there's no way I'm falling asleep on my Crimj professor it just isn't happening.
MMM....it could be that you're just getting to an age where you need your own space, huh?
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